I am having a selfish mommy day.
This morning I was nursing Bean and when we finished I propped myself up to look at her. She has grown SO much since we first brought her home. She is unbelievably long and round and perfectly plump. She's growing real hair and her eyes have turned from blue to hazel. She smiles and coos and plays with her voice. She gets grumpy if we take a toy out of her hand. She watches us with great interest when we are eating. She is just an amazing little being.
But I can't help feeling like it is all happening too fast!! Of course I should want her to grow and change and develop, but I also feel like I'm not getting enough time to just snuggle my little baby.
So I am in selfish mommy mode. I want to just keep her right where she is for a little while. I can't keep up with her.